Short post, i swear.
Two things.First,a song.Second,a movie.
All Saints were hot and rolling few years back in my pre-puberty years and i thought they separated a long time ago (as all pop bands eventually do) but they've returned with the most addictive track ever,'Rock Steady' which kinda has a cool modern retro feeling to it,but this song is definitely going to be stuck in my head for the next few days.
Mysterious Skin.A movie i watched a couple days back-before watching the surprisingly entertaining 'Talladega Nights' (which i won't be digressing into,hence keeping to my word).Basically,its about two boys who were sexually assaulted by their coach when they were small-both these individuals contrary to the other in almost every possible way,but eventually their sorrow brings them together-one can't remember the assault,the other can't forget.This is a beautiful film about loneliness and love,and how those two find desperate ways to co-exist in a world that demands otherwise-this film is undoubtedly flawed,at times showing us gory rape scenes for the mere shock value to it,but as a whole Mysterious Skin is one helluva emotional film that unexpectedly had me either sobbing silently or gazing with full knowledge the unspoken pain the characters wholeheartedly endure.
You don't have to tell me, I was infatuated with him too once. But I know all Neil's secrets and there's shit there you don't even want to know about. Trust me. Once I'm gone, you'll be all Neil has and you have to understand one thing. Where normal people have a heart, Neil McCormick has a bottomless black hole. And if you don't watch out, you can fall in and get lost forever.
I met Wendy Peterson when I was ten. She was eleven, one grade ahead of me in school. If I wasn't queer we would have ended up having sloppy teenage sex and getting pregnant, contributing more fucked-up unwanted kids to society. But instead, she became my soulmate.
As we sat there listening to the carolers, I wanted to tell Brian that it was over now and that everything would be okay. But that was a lie, plus I couldn't speak anyway. I wish there was some way to go back and undo the past. But there wasn't. There was nothing we could do. So I just stayed silent and tried to telepathically communicate how sorry I was about what happened. And I thought of all the grief and suffering and fucked up stuff in the world, and it made me want to escape. I wished with all my heart we could just leave this world behind. Rise like two angels in the night and magically disappear.
Josep Gordon Levitt isn't that much a great actor,he has this one kind of face permanently stuck all the time-part frustration,part fear,most strained impatience.But his part in this movie,despite his stone face (like the way Zach Braff has that face in his 'life' movies), is really something to watch.
We all hide our scars.We all hide.We all wish for greater things.And in due time,all of us will find clarity from the most unexpected places,which is when we finally find the much-needed courage to bear our open wounds and let ourselves to just be.
I'll find it soon enough,i hope.