Floater

Am at the uni comlab at 7.30 am,where a few other sleepless souls and a suspicious-looking old man wearing orange-rimmed glasses and a grey wool sweater,sit weary-eyed facing samsung monitors.I suspect this old man isn't even a student and is surfing for free porn,or he might just be a science lecturer with a fashion sense not too different from the homeless.And the more I peek his way the more sympathetic I feel,for him,and myself if I ever become some kind of loveless old man one day.

The internet at home hasn't been working for 2 days and if last time I would've thrown a tantrum directed at the ignorant receptionist (who,without fail,casually informs me 'something is being done' in response to every complain received),I'm not too affected because it's happened too many times-and sometimes you've just got to make do with other resources at hand,which is why I'm at the uni comlab checking emails and stuff.

A week ago my contract with Fitness First ended and when I went over to their office,the two ponytailed girls in their uniforms told me their computers were frozen and they couldn't process any information.Then they advised me to set an appointment with their manager,after drilling me with a series of questions on why I chose to quit-in business world,all of this is a not-too-subtle technique to tell your customers that they're small,powerless units and should obey they all mighty dictating force that is the organisation.Fools.

Yesterday's weekly management tutorial quiz went great-managed to score 3 points (still a bummer if compared to how the locals in my class fare),but the usual performer who missed the first 9 questions scored 6 points with the last one (the only q not related to business news) when he correctly guessed the lyric of a Guns & Roses song.Kudos,clever white mice.

Sometimes,a few days past by in a flurry and hurriedly without my mind registering much-often forgetting details and nothing really significant occurring,but at times there'll be short periods of time where it seems as if so much is happening-especially when stress levels are low,I suddenly notice how cool the weather is,how blissful the day passes and how terrific the music I listen to actually sounds.It's when I'm not overly self-conscious and choose to be tension-free:using the diary to organise my day so things don't feel too hectic,distracting myself from problems with happy music and happy thoughts,choosing to not give a damn about the things I can't control.

But sometimes really bad things happen,like today's news about a shooting in some US uni where 32 students died (the article here).I don't know those people,but when things like that happen you can't help but wonder what the world's come to and when bad things can suddenly happen at times when you least expect them.

Had a heavy breakfast 30minutes ago but am now hungry again.Thank god I brought some peanut butter sandwiches and crackers along.Impulsively chose to wear a bright blue sweater today.

Don't worry if things get a bit heavy,we'll all float on all right
Modest Mouse' Float On