Cheated Hearts

Well i'm Taka-taka-taka-taka-takin' it off
And she's Taka-taka-taka-taka-takin' it off
And he's Taka-taka-taka-taka-takin' it off
And we're Taka-taka-taka-taka-takin' it off
Well,sometimes I think that I'm bigger than the sound.

I haven't really got much to talk about,but I'll just start and we'll see where it goes.

Few petty matters have been bothering me lately,and I keep reminding myself to just let go and move on with life-because it's silly to let anyone affect you and consume so much of your thoughts and time,when really everything is pointless.So,I try to accept the facts as they are (without trying to change them to my advantage or to feel better).

Why dwell on things you can't change?A close wise friend once told me that the world's never going to change (oh wait,that sounds a bit pessimistic.Let me rephrase:chances that the world will change anytime soon are slim)-bastards will remain bastards-and the only answer would be to change yourself.Sure the truth is as simple as that,but to actually look into it and attempt to change oneself-it's much harder than it sounds.And over the past two years (especially this year),I've slowly tried to change myself for the better,giving myself time to learn and realise and reason with myself why and how things should go.These things can backfire if they're done to quickly or forced,so I'm taking my sweet own time and giving it as long as it takes for long-term change to happen.

Some people don't like change.Because change can reveal to you some things you'd rather not see-when you learn new things about yourself,the world becomes a clearer place and other people seem clearer too.Without themselves actually changing,you begin to contemplate the trueness of your friendships-realising that some of the friends you have aren't who you thought they are and also some of the things you previously thought were definite are now ambiguous and vague.Probing into life and asking questions is like investigating a cave,as you delve deeper you find spaces you never knew were there and slowly learn to see things in a broader perspective.People departmentalize everything into good and bad,black and white,usually for the convenience of trying to understand life better without letting tough complexities get in the way-but honestly,people aren't necessarily as easily definable as you'd like to think and often there are reasons you need to know to truly understand why anyone is who they are.

Go around judging people and trying to find explanations for everything and you might get lost,but stay ignorant and you'll never grow out of your immaturity and naiveness-so there's a thin line in between those two,a thin line most of us will eventually arrive at and discover for ourselves.So at the end of the day,you'll maybe see that life's a whole complicated matter-but it all boils down to how you percieve it,and how your mind views the outside world.If you're an insider looking out,the world's an out-of-control place full of hate and anger,but outside-in: it's fascinating to know that there's much more to it than just what you think or what people tell you,and there's so much out there to learn-beyond you and me,beyond love and hatred,maybe even beyond human comprehension-life pervades all time and space,and to think that I'm pissed off about the few people trying their best to hurt me.

Oh Al,please.Grow up and move on.