Aneurysm

I think I've been blogging a bit too often-honestly I don't want to be another xiaxue who makes a "career" out of blogging,because I think it's downright pathetic and sleazy.But it's a free world,we can all do all these silly petty things that pale in comparison to true crimes and the world won't change a single bit.Plus,writing here activates my brain-it makes me think,and instead of passively surrendering to the tv or lying down thinking about all sorts of depressing stuff-I come here and make it a point to feel optimistic,and it gives me the opportunity to unload all the crap that would otherwise be lingering in the darker corners of my mind,inspiring conversation within self and leading to psychopathy and all that shit.

Let's do this,bitches.And yes,it's necessary for me to make something this trivial sound excessively dramatic-because how else will I make it in Hollywood?No,not as an actor-I have the acting talent equivalent of an infant.But as something else.A flamingo or something.Or a giraffe.If I ever get reborn as an animal I would want to be a giraffe-they're incredibly beautiful and graceful,even at that height and size.

Went to a Borders at Times Sq this evening,grabbed a couple of books on photography.I really want to start somewhere,god knows how long I've been talking about taking up photography.I hardly know how to use the point-and-shoot digi cam,but those dumb things are lousy inventions and I'm more interested in knowing how to use a serious camera (that's what the book calls it,a bit pretentious but whatever man).I'm starting with this book,which gives detailed but straightforward explanations for basic things and includes useful tips on various topics you'll need to know.I feel that I need to pick up more hobbies and accumulate more skills,because the effort and journey I take into learning these things help me express myself better as a person plus I want to be able to do something else aside from being able to read and write and recite random poems in the middle of lunch.

I need to occupy my time with useful things,things that keep me alive and going.Reading helps,especially with books like the one I'm currently reading-Jonathan Franzen's The Corrections,it's the kind of book I can't read with music playing or while I'm distracted because the language and flow requires that I sit down and focus on what's going on,every bit and detail of every moment is rich and filled with things worth noting for and the story so far has been incredibly satisfying,though the way it nonchalantly skips from one character's story to the other so frequently can be slightly frustrating.Then there's music-again,I've been downloading a shitload of albums particularly stuff from the 60's-90's.Nirvana,Foo Fighters,The Who,Liz Phair,Hendrix,The Cure-there's something really appealing and emotional about that raw,unpolished sound they produced back then.Plus nowadays a lot of songs try to convey messages and meanings with long and elaborate lyrics,when really some of the best songs like Nirvana's Lithium manage to mean and represent so much with a simple string of YEAAHHHs in their chorus alone.Emotion need not a high vocab.

Dave Dee,Dozy,Beaky,Mike & Tich-Hold Tight

Chances that any of you will watch Death Proof are slim,a shame because the moment the song above comes on in one of the film's pivotal scenes is simply heart pounding.Great song,used in the best way possible in a scene-it sounds easy to pair a song and scene together,but rarely does the end result achieve perfection.On the top of my head,two other times it did was in-(1) Tarantino's Reservoir Dogs' ear-cutting scene with Stuck In The Middle played and (2) Dropkick Murphy's I'm Shipping Up to Boston played in a scene in Scorsese's The Departed.

Ah,rambling done.The world is at peace once again.Or is that the sound of a girl screaming for help out there?Nah,can't be.Stupid kids,can't they dive into the pool without sounding like they're in danger?Or maybe they enjoy the sense of danger from these kind of things.They imagine diving into a pool of knives when they do it,feeling all heroic and superhuman.Now I feel like taking a swim.

But i'll rewatch this video of some idiot going around massaging people with a dildo instead.